mystory

I’ll try and keep this short, which knowing my ramblings wont be.

I’ve lost weight unintentionally and intentionally.
When I’ve lost it healthily and intentionally it made me so happy, and when i lost it without realizing I didn’t notice anything different.
Yes i do like my clothes getting bigger and baggy.
I like choosing size 6 or 8 and not 14.
Yes i have been a size 14 and even a 16.
I had depression and stayed at home, it was boredom eating. I literally lived of nutella and milo out of the jar.
Then sometimes i would eat a heap at once and then not for ages. I didn’t know what i was doing.
And then at the start of last year my boyfriend broke up with me, he left me for another girl.
I have had a miscarriage and the girl he left me for had just had a baby.
I hung towels on mirrors i wouldn’t look in reflections.
I HATED myself, I HATED my body, I HATED my ex for crashing the car and killing our baby.
I don’t have a boyfriend now. I just have really good friends.
I want to be happy with myself before I am happy with another.
And getting my body inside and out healthy is my current focus.
so this is my story.

it begins august 1st 2011

I will be posting text post and pictures that give me inspiration and remind me what i am going to get to.
This includes personal posts as well and small achievements

Update 26/05/2012
I’m currently pregnant im 9 weeks and 4 days today and due on christmas day (december, 25th, 2012).
My boyfriend has left me, and I’m doing this on my own.
I do have a guy that i think may be there for me, but im not sure if its for the long run. He works over in Iraq for half of the year, but he is so sweet and caring.
I am just taking each day as it comes now.